Filed under: Faith, God, Happy, Hope, Soul, Thoughts, meditation | Tags: Faith, God-is-there, Liberation, Om-namah-shivaya, Speak the truth, Spiritual
I have worked on my thoughts for a long time. Now I see one message flashing before my eyes —- all this began with this message and now its going to end with me actually acting on it.
‘SPEAK THE TRUTH’
First time that I really deliberated on this was back in Summers of 2008. That was a time when I graduated from NIT Jalandhar. Thanks to my friend, Gary for that.
You have your truth.... let it go out and all other secrets will unleash
No I will not reason. I will not try to give rational proofs now. I have done them all. I ended up hurting myself. I ended up with negative thoughts taking shelter in my head. It was a fortunate moment that I realized this very simple message. It seems to be an answer to all my problems at the moment. Problems that I have created in last two years. The cycle is over. Now is the time to do something new – was the status message of a friend on orkut! I kept it myself 
Notion of right and wrong has always circumferenced my thoughts. So that forms a circle around everything I do and think about. Certainly it gave me the power to discriminate. But then, at times – I found myself in bitter dilemma – unable to take any decision. Those were the times of prime importance if I were to go back and stand there in time. Having no decision in itself was ‘wrong’. I had none.
Speaking truth liberates oneself from all fears and worries. What could be the possible reason of fear and doubts. As long as you do not pass doubts and fear to the world, world will not reflect the same to you. If I am telling one single lie, I would have created a lie in the mirror that would be reflected on me. Then this lie is going to make me tremble in fear and go insane with doubts at some point of time. I am sure of this.
Speaking truth lets me feel stronger than ever. I feel hundred percent confident in doing what I am doing. I feel confident to overcome any negative thoughts coming on to knock hard on my head.
Unconditional Love - That which recognizes the unknown!
Do right and fear no man! This is a famous quote written by some wise wo/man I don’t know. I have an updated version for myself. Do right and have reason to love everyone. A reason to love everyone means a reason to love yourself more than anything else. I wish I had no reason to hate anyone in this world. Whatever reasons there are, I will make them disappear one by one.
DAWN TO DUSK - GOD IS THERE
Spiritual experiences are going on. Early morning emotions are very different from what I feel by the time its afternoon. But I do find time to meditate twice a day. So I am able to remember the true nature of world – transitory, unstable and illusive and soul – ever shinning – one – divine!
Thanks a ton for coming!
Two days ago, I had a beautiful dream which actually started with a tragedy. With all the weird things going on in the middle, climax was truly marvelous. The dream reflected my emotions in meditation before sleep. That was a night when I went to sleep without getting my answers in meditation. A beautiful and angelic little girl with blue eyes appeared at the end of dream who was answering me. I did not wake up when the dream was over. But the dream and its memory seems to be very very clear to me. My past records of recollecting a dream is pretty bad. I just don’t remember. But this one was really special. The angel was none other than Goddess to me. The answers I sought were very well answered. I had a sense of relief and my left mind had pretty good stuff to stay content to let me have unending faith and reason to love ‘unconditionally’.
~~~Om Namah Shivay~~~
Filed under: Duality, Faith, God, Soul, Thoughts, Yoga, meditation | Tags: Bliss, God-is-there, Mystry beyond Trinity, Om-namah-shivaya, Spirituality, Tripura Rahasya
My spiritual journey is on. There were odds. Fear, anger and doubt to name a few. Fear is a direct ancestor of violence and anger. Until unless I am afraid I can not get angry or turn violent. This is a fact that I have realized recently. With the divine grace of a beloved soul Avdhoot Baba Shivananda I have found myself more blissful than ever. I have found my doubts being answered on TV, you tube and everywhere else through him. During the hardest times of paramount doubts and loss of faith, his words has shown me the light.
I am I am I am
Few weeks ago I came across a book titled “Tripura Rahasya – Mystery Beyond Trinity”. The book, though having multiple metaphors was truly scientific in nature. It is a SCIENTIFIC SCRIPTURE. I have found no other text so profound and clear. I feel, coming across such a great piece of text and then having an interest to go through it was in itself a great blessing. The book spans over 300 pages. As I was reading page by page, I found myself immersed in the bliss. Somehow I saw the duality around me shrinking to negligible amount! It was a time when I had stopped smoking pot, cigarette and even dropped occasional drinks! All this happened after I returned from Kasol ( Manali) 3 months back. I did so, in order to strengthen my faith on my own thoughts. I had great thoughts when I was high. but the bliss was temporary in nature and soon I found myself with negative thoughts, doubts and fear. Just to make sure that I was thinking in the right direction – I quit them all. Then I started meditating on daily basis. Having numerous spiritual experiences through out the year 2008 and 2009, I have a strong faith and will power setting new records. The new records, I know are against myself only. I am improving and getting better.
Then, on one day, improvement, achievement and everything else ceased to exist. Duality came to a standstill. I myself was amazed later on as how and why did this happen. But I was deeply thankful to Ma Durga and Lord Shiva for letting me have this divine experience. I used to meditate for about half an hour every day on the roof of our flat in Jalandhar. I tried everything that seemed possible. I tried to talk to many people telepathically. Sometimes the results were amazing. I found these telepathic conversations actually being a part of real-practical world we know. Then I tried to visit many places while meditating. Every time i came out of my ‘dhyana’ I found myself calm and quiet. There were no questions after the meditation. I got at least one big answer though all this – Whenever you have questions, doubts and fear – Do not ask – Do not reason – Just sit down, meditate and you will know. And when you know, you dance or you turn calm. On that fate ful day I was at perfect peace after reading ‘Tripura Rahasya”. Somewhere in the book it was said that nothing new can be created without losing the old. Instantly I knew that I had to free my mind of all thoughts that came. I was lucky that there were no negative thoughts and events happening at that time. When such things are there, it is simply impossible to stay calm, peaceful and have a mind devoid of thoughts. Moon light added to my peace and tranquility as I sat down praying with folded hands. I just sat down. Thoughts came. Thoughts resolved with instantaneous answers. Then thoughts left. With my eyes closed I felt as if I could see the roof vaguely. After some time I felt as if there was light all over the roof. I just remember one lingual thought going on in my head at that time. “There was never a time that I was not. There is no place where I am not. I am I am I am”. Bliss knew no limits. I was disconnected from all attachments of the material world. I felt the time and space disappear. Then I realized how time and space are illusions as well. I knew it since a long time back if I were to mention my knowledge of scriptures and science. But, just the way dry polemics do, I had not realized it and often found myself doubting these facts very often. If I am the One, I should see it.
I felt as if I was not the body but the building! The expansion did not go any further as soon as a single thought of this world came in. But I saw the roof from a height of almost 10 meters from the point I was sitting initially. When I came out of the meditation, I knew that a miracle had just happened. This was a spiritual experience that I was longing for. My prayers had been answered by the blessing of Shiva Shakti mata Gauri.
Although I have strong reasoning skills to prove that there is God and so many other things but then I myself had not experienced it. So it was always incomplete. I myself felt terrible at moments because I feared that I will again start living like a crackpot, taken over by the misers in life. That was a time when I had this experience – Right at a time when I needed.
Once such experiences happen, life is never the same. Peace and calm becomes the utmost goal and ‘ahmkara’ starts disappearing taking the form of a wide all-is-one form.
I know that I need the guidance of a Master to lead me on the spiritual path. And So I found one. I haven’t met him face to face. I do talk to him in my meditations and he still answers my questions.
I have seen numbers and symbols and stars and signs in plenty which steered me to delightful spiritual experiences. This experience in deep meditation was the highest of all. I was full alert and I realized what I just knew-by-reason, had-read-in-scriptures, deliberated-in-my-head, heard-from-the-wise on that evening.
Om Namah Shivaya.
Filed under: Faith, Physics, Thoughts, why | Tags: bad, conversation-about-God, good
An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty.
God Is There
He asks one of his new students to stand and …
Prof. – So you believe in God.
Student - Absolutely, sir.
Prof. - Is God good?
Student – Sure.
Prof. - Is God all-powerful?
Student – Yes.
Prof. - My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is this God good then? Hmm?
Student – ( Student is silent )
Prof. - You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student - Yes.
Prof. - Is Satan good?
Student - No.
Prof. – Where does Satan come from?
Student - From. … God…
Prof. - That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student - Yes.
Prof. - Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct ?
Student- Yes.
Prof. – So who created Evil?
Student - ( Student does not answer )
Prof. - Is there sickness? Immortality ? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student - Yes, sir.
Prof. - So, who created them?
Student - ( Student has no answer )
Prof. - Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son … Have you ever seen God?
Student - No, sir.
Prof. - Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student – no, sir.
Prof. - Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student – No, sir. I am afraid I haven’t.
Prof. - Yet you still believe in him?
Student - Yes.
Prof. – According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What you say to that, son?
Student – Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof. - Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student – Professor, is there such thing as heat?
Prof. - Yes.
Student - And is there a thing as cold?
Prof. - Yes.
Student - No sir. There isn’t.
( The lecture theater becomes very quiet with this turn of events )
Student – Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold.
We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that.
There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat.
We can not measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
( There is pin drop silence in the lecture hall )
Student - What about the darkness, Professor? Is there any such thing as darkness?
Prof. - Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student - You are wrong again, sir. Darkness is absence of light.
You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light… but if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called darkness, isn’t it?
In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Prof. - So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student – Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof. – Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student - Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, and good God and a bad God.
You are viewing the concept of God is something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can not even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understand either one.
To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not opposite of life : Just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from monkey?
Prof. – If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes of course, I do.
Student - Have you ever observed the evolution with your eyes, sir?
Evolution
Prof. - ( The professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going. )
Student - Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir?
Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
Prof. - ( The class is in uproar )
Student - Is there anyone is the class who has seen professor’s brain?
Prof. - ( The class breaks out into laughter. )
Student – Is there anyone here who has smelt professor’s brain, felt it, touched it or smelt it? … No one appears to have done so.
So according to the established rule of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
( The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable. )
Prof. – I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.
Student – That is it, sir. . The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving and alive.
Yoga
A good deal of explanation is necessary here.
We have to understand what Chitta is, and what are these Vrttis.
I have this eye. Eyes do not see. Take away the brain centre which is in the head, the eyes will still be there, the retinæ complete, and also the picture, and yet the eyes will not see. So the eyes are only a secondary instrument, not the organ of vision. The organ of vision is in the nerve centre of the brain. The two eyes will not be sufficient alone. Sometimes a man is asleep with his eyes open. The light is there and the picture is there, but a third thing is necessary; mind must be joined to the organ. The eye is the external instrument, we need also the brain centre and the agency of the mind. Carriages roll down a street and you do not hear them. Why? Because your mind has not attached itself to the organ of hearing. First there is the instrument, then there is the organ, and third, the mind attachment to these two.
The mind takes the impression farther in, and presents it to the determinative faculty—Buddhi—which reacts. Along with this reaction flashes the idea of egoism. Then this mixture of action and reaction is presented to the Purusa, the real Soul, who perceives an object in this mixture.
The organs (Indriyas), together with the mind (Manas), the determinative faculty (Buddhi) and egoism (Ahamkara), form the group called the Antahkarana (the internal instrument). They are but various processes in the mind-stuff, called Chitta.
The waves of thought in the Chitta are called Vrtti (“the whirlpool” is the literal translation).
What is thought? Thought is a force, as is gravitation or repulsion. It is absorbed from the infinite storehouse of force in nature; the instrument called Chitta takes hold of that force, and, when it passes out at the otherend it is called thought. This force is supplied to us through food, and out of that food the body obtains the power of motion, etc. Others, the finer forces, it throws out in what we call thought. Naturally we see that the mind is not intelligent; yet it appears to be intelligent. Why? Because the intelligent soul is behind it.
You are the only sentient being; mind is only the instrument through which you catch the external world.
Take this blog; as a blog it does not exist outside, what exists outside is unknown and unknowable. It is the suggestion that gives a blow to the mind, and the mind gives out the reaction. If a stone is thrown into the water the water is thrown against it in the form of waves. The real universe is the occasion of the reaction of the mind.
A book form, or an elephant form, or a man form, is not outside; all that we know is our mental reaction from the outer suggestion.
Matter is the “permanent possibility of sensation,” said John Stuart Mill. It is only the suggestion that is outside. Take an oyster for example. You know how pearls are made. A grain of sand or something gets inside and begins to irritate it, and the oyster throws a sort of enameling around the sand, and this makes the pearl. This whole universe is our own enamel, so to say, and the real universe is the grain of sand. The ordinary man will never understand it, because, when he tries to, he throws out enamel, and sees only his own enamel. Now we understand what is meant by these Vrttis.
The real man is behind the mind, and the mind is the instrument in his hands, and it is his intelligence that is percolating through it.
It is only when you stand behind it that it becomes intelligent. When man gives it up it falls to pieces, and is nothing. So you understand what is meant by Chitta. It is the mind-stuff, and Vrttis are the waves and ripples rising in it when external causes impinge on it.
These Vrttis are our whole universe.
We have not one BUT two personalities at the same time!!
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Talk to yourself more
Talk to yourself more
Does that sound ‘insane’ to you? But that happens to be the case with all of us. We have two personalities. The first personality is driven by the ENVIRONMENT. Its traits, parameters and characteristics are shaped by following factors on a particular day ( for example)
- What you saw during the day – a picture, a video, a live scene!
- What you hear during the day – on radio – from (your friends – fellow passengers on a bus – bench mates in a classroom etc)!
- What you talk about – to your friends on phone, buddies on Facebook or few guys at the small shop where you spend a few minutes smoking.
- What you watch on TV, surf on your web browser and so on!
All these ‘happenings’/’events’ of which, we ourselves are an integral part, form the basic Skelton of this ‘PERSONALITY PART 1’. For simplicity I will call it PP1 from now on. (That’s no oxford standard vaise!!)
The traits, characteristics will not be visibly observable until it causes at least one action. How can you notice something subtle? If there is some action, some movement, some changes.. …. You can measure it and then you can have some conclusions [for your own – mind it]. So what is the next step in the analytical process?
You gotta observe yourself and see how your external ENVIRONMENT affects your ACTIONS through YOU. ( lol lol lol)
Well WELL!! You are not a puppet!! Are you??
You tell people –‘You are what you are’-BUT then you talk to someone on your mobile – go downstairs stumbling twice, scold your otherwise too-cute-too-lovely 7 year old angel-like daughter – for reasons UNKNOWN!!
ACTUALLY you were taken over by PP1. So you ended up doing something which had no roots in your head! There were no thoughts like this!! How could you ever make your angel cry buckets just because you had a terrible conversation over phone!! You just let yourself be the vehicle of that negativity, I would say.
Your personality changed.
Your outlook on things happening outside changed.
Your reactions to events in outer world changed.
A ‘BAD VIBE’ carried itself THROUGH you and YOU LET IT DO SO.
Because you were taken over by PP1!
Before going deeper into the effects and consequences of mutual interaction of these personality types, let’s get ourselves familiar with PP2.
PP2 is that part of you (whatever idea/conception you might have formed about yourself) which is not affected by the external environment. You may take me as ‘mad’ for calling the other part so. There would be absolutely no ‘nicely-written-or-well-drafted’ definition for PP2. The process takes one fact into account – Duality.
Whenever this personality is at its peak – YOU WILL DO AMAZING THINGS!!! You will do things that would be categorized as ‘miracles’ in the definitions and textbooks of those having a higher PP1 percentage in their regular life.
A higher percentage of PP1 means that your thinking, behavior and momentary actions will be driven by the external environment. If you wake up with a nice tea on table with a phone call from your girl friend, you feel nice and in turn talk nicely to your dad who is just about to leave for the office. By chance (So many things happen, you know) if things are not as pretty, weather is not as pleasant as you want it to be – you tend to get angry, your thoughts get maligned and your actions – uncontrolled!! Even if you take ‘retro_spection’ (for example), you will know how uneasy you felt!!
If PP2 is at its peak, everything would become spontaneous. You will be just yourself!! Yes – yourself! Even if it is scorching hot outside – you will talk nicely to the fellow passengers on a train! You are just what you are.
Most of the times, their ratio will vary!! And we don’t even know it! We don’t know when and how it happens! We don’t know when we let our environment control ourselves.
Now you may ask, what is the point? What exactly am I trying to say!!
Even if you have so and so personalities ( double personalities ) how would knowing that help you out. Well – the first step is to recognize that you have two!!
Listen to the two people talking in your head!! That’s a little mad but its fun.
We are all schizophrenic - to some degree! Recognize it.. have fun with it.. use it self control .. use it to self liberation .. use it for anything.. first step, invariably, remains the same – know that you are schizophrenic! to some degree you are!
There was a prime minister of a king who underwent all the ascetic practices, which are necessary, to see the Goddess of Fortune in flesh and blood before him. Well, he practised all those mantrams, incantations and charms. A million times he repeated sacred mantrams that were calculated to make him realize the presence of goddess Lakshmi.
She did not appear. Three million times he underwent all the ascetic practices; still the goddess was not visible.
He lost all faith in these things and renounced everything in the world, took up Sannyasa (monk life) and became a monk. The very moment that he embraced Sannyasa (monk life) and left the palace and retired into the forests he found the goddess before him. He cried, ‘Go away, goddess, why are you here now? I want you no more I am a monk. What has a monk to do with luxury, with riches, with wealth and worldly enjoyments? When I wanted you, you came not; now that I do not desire you, you came before me.” The goddess replied, “You yourself stood in the way. So long as you desired, you were asserting duality, you were making a beggar of yourself, and that kind of being can have nothing. The moment you rise above desires and spurn them, you are a god, and to gods belongs the glory.” That is the secret.
- Rise above desires and they are fulfilled; beg and their fulfillment recedes further from you.
- Om
I do not create this blog!
This blog is creating me
with every post, comment – everyday!
the little much I believe
is a simple thing
that i don’t know an answer
to a question
That stems from all that i see
and that I hear
with or without sounds
and feel
wake up or in sleep
So this is not all
Else,
it should have made perfect sense
The world, it seems
is not what i see
So do others say
Sometimes I doubt
That I am the owner
of my universe,
of all that i see
And really forgot how to rule
Or I fail,
being a fool; to understand
That I am ruling anyways
Creating my universe
with my thoughts – everyday
But still,
I don’t know WHY, and how
And so I am glad
and thankful to the Unknown
that i see
beyond the two eyes He gave
and made me the King
of the world He created
In the end
I feel
I the King, and the world
Including my Lord, the so-called-God
As well as this small blog
is, but one, in all, and the same
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: bullah ki jana main kaun, know, mosque, not, religion, secrets, what, who-am-i, why
who am i
Here is a famous song and its translation. The song is a composition of Bulleh Shah.
Bulla ki jaana main kaun
Bulla, who knows who I am?
Na mei moman vich masetan
Neither I am a believer (who stays) in a mosque
Na main vich kufar dian reetan
Nor do I indulge in actions of disbelief
Na main pakan vich paleetan
Nor am I the pure one amongst the impure
Na main andar bed kitaban
Neither I exist in books of Vedas
Na main rehnda phaang sharaban
Nor do I stay drunk
Na main rehnda mast kharaban
Nor do I remain stoned, rotting
Na main shadi na ghamnaki
Neither I am happy nor sad
Na mei vich paletan pakeen
Nor am I in the (argument of) Purity and Impurity
Na main aaabi na main khaki
Neither I am (made) of water nor of earth
Na main aatish na main paun
Nor am I fire nor air
Bulla ki jana main kaun
Bulla, who knows who I am?
Na main arabi na lahori
Neither Iam Arabic nor Lahori
Na main hindi shehar Nagaori
Nor am I (resident of) the Indian City Nagaori
Na hindu na turk pashauri
Nor Hindu nor Turk Peshaweri
Na main bhet mazhab de paya
Neither have I found the secret of religion
Na main aadam hawwa jaya
Nor did understand Adam and Eve
Na koi apna naam dharaya
Nor did I create a name for myself
Avval aakhar aap nu jana
From beginning to end, I tried to understand myself
Na koi dooja hor pacchana
I did not come to know of anyone else
Mai ton na koi hor syana
I am not just another wise one
Bulle shah kharha hai kaun
Bulla Shah, who is this standing?
Bulla ki jaana main kaun
Bulla, who knows who I am?
Na main moosa na pharon
Neither I am Moses nor Pharoah
Na main jagan na vich saun
Neither I am awake nor asleep
Na main aatish na main paun
Neither I am fire nor Air
Na main rahnda vich Nadaun
Nor do I live among fools
Na main baitthan na vich bhaun
Neither I am sitting nor am I in a tornado
Bulle shah kharha hai kaun
Bulla Shah, who is this standing?
Bulla ki jana main kaun
Bulla, who knows who I am?
OOO…
Bulla ki jana main kaun
Bulla, who knows who I am?
Ummidein
Ummidein
Ummedein hain akash se, Ek chamtkar ki
Ho Prakashmay yah antarman
Aur surya dharan meri aakhon mein
Ho taron se maitri
Abhilasha hai, chandrama se batiyane ki||
Ummidein hain apne aap se, ek sakshatkaar ki
Ho samaksh meri aatma
Aur vishwa dhaaran mere swaroop mein
Ho prem se nata
Abhilasha hai, apni gaharai mein jane ki||
Ummidein hain mitron se, atoot bharose ki
Ho anant balidaan
Aur kartvya mere karmon mein
Ho atma ka saamna
Abhilasha hai, purntah unko jaanane ki||
Ummidein hain lakshya se, ek raste ki
Ho darshan manjil ke
aur rahe saahas meri vaani mein
Ho sampurn jagat ka gyaan
Abhilasha hai, jagat ko lakshya pe le jane ki||
I wrote it few months ago. Couldn’t find a way to post in hindi so had to do with english script instead of devnagri 
